Stress Dreams

I found three cliche stress dreams due to school starting next week, cleaned up my reading list and made an enormous pot of chili to cover next week's meals. Still yet to take down the Christmas decorations or finish the organizing painting. I washed all my clothing and promptly discarded a quarter of them. I will buy more Precise V5 pens soon.

I began a sketchbook last week. It is a sequel to the hand bound Life China book. So far only words fall on the pages, but I'll loosen up once this semester begins. 

VIP

Constant movement to flush out gravity; "Partition" is a new anthem. An organized painting found me nights ago, so I sit on asleep nerves and arrange pieces from magazine pages. I've only eaten sausage and potatoes and rice. I desperately long to cope.

Moving west like a treatment, but we know it's only because I want control .

Coffee Muse

I'm documenting dreams and filling out a social schedule. I'm lusting after a Filofax planner and Beyonce's new album. Research is slow because Breaking Bad replaces all motives. A betta fish moved in with me; he's yet to discover I feed him at the same time daily. 

I want to rent a wall space permanent, a whole semester unobstructed mapping. It requires a 16:9 lateral movement of butcher paper beneath loose quoted ideas. The wall in the center of studio will do. I will sign the lease on January 27th.

Past few days I've tested my frustration and each conversation resolves the same; "keep doing." Funny how one has blessed guidance but no fine print about reassurance,

Self-doubt is a blasted think.

Flint Hill Sunset

Used time moving instead of sleeping, so grinding teeth nightmares have begun (carsickness while dreaming, eleven hours a day driving does) and so we flew home in between the Flint Hills. I have decided one must remain butterflied as a creative; I want to spend some days running exercises and eating vegetables instead of the tough meat I've choked down for years. I need items high in sodium and low in repercussion.

Thus, I spend days saving food and searching for the perfect copy of The Fountainhead.

Winter Break Imposition

Using Christmas cards to detox from the semester, self-imposed deadline instead of appeasing dialogue. 

Track for continuation of detox and output of work include: at least one drawing/organized collage due every Saturday, an explanation of how to thread a loom, reading The Economist every week (as a coffee muse), catching up on lost reading, start and finish Breaking Bad, "researching" the radio/Beyonce's new album. All this is held accountable by others; it is easier to construct when people are relying on you.