2020 musings

On Meditation

“Fate has dealt you a blow,” Carl Kurtz told our Foundations class in 2011. We sat in a circle around him on traffic-yellow drawing horses. It was the first day of undergrad for us all, in the temporary building the freshmen took their studio courses in. Ours was outfitted with a small loft and a side closet, a green chalkboard and plenty of pockmarked white walls. Carl says we are inheriting a confusing and chaotic world. We were not allowed to listen to music collectively or individually during our daily 4-hour period of class. Carl’s class was unique in regard to this, that he insisted on complete concentration on our charcoal and newsprint and subject matter. We all respected this rule and bent over our drawings, the room filled with scratching and sighing and mumbling while we made art. He taught us how to measure, how to use a utility blade, how to use hot glue and bamboo, how to sharpen a pencil. Most importantly, he taught us to work without distraction so our mind and bodies could focus wholly on the task in front of us.

Note from Carl Kurtz to read “The Art Spirit” by Robert Henri and “The Shape of Content” by Ben Shahn.

Note from Carl Kurtz to read “The Art Spirit” by Robert Henri and “The Shape of Content” by Ben Shahn.

Raised Arms

Last week I took 3 full days for realignment, all in the middle of the week. I rested the first day, dreamed a new reality on the second, and separated my affairs on the third and final day. Everyone should be keeping a daily journal - the Getty needs artifacts from the present. The first quarter is coming to a close today, one-fourth of 2020, scheduled and written. As someone who embraces routine and strives to meet set goals, I had to take time to rewrite my internal clock. It is still okay to ask for what one wants, even in the midst of chaos. There is value in recognizing hope and moving toward it even when one does not feel safe. So many have mentioned how they are able to slow down and realize what their life truly looks like lately. It is nice to cast out old methods of working and embrace the discernment of a new pace.

My wedding ring is from the early 1900s, an Art Deco beauty that has time traveled to me, an object that has lived over 100 years on planet Earth as a ring and seen many things on other hands.